Wednesday, May 21, 2008

So I'm a Loser and Not the Good Kind

You probably have noticed that it has been awhile since I've tackled a Weight Watchers post. Part of this is because I decided to go cold turkey and cancelled my weight watchers online membership. Why do you ask? Well I have to confess that I was not using it nearly as much as I should and began questioning myself about why I was paying $16 a month for something I wasn't using.

Now I am a strong believer in the could I not be considering I lost over 40 pounds using it?! It is great for people like me who cannot "diet" by taking something away. The program taught me more how to control my portions, to really look at what I was eating and its nutritional value, and finally to understand how certain foods affect my body. However, the last few months I found myself getting very frustrated as the scale was consistently staying the same even when I would stay within my points and was walking my butt off (literally). In turn I found myself snacking more often, having an ice cream here, a donut there, and lots of cookies, brownies, and candy bars in between. The funny thing is that I have had lots of people comment about how I am still losing weight and asking when I will reach my goal weight and I think this may be because of all the walking. Even though my scale isn't showing a decrease I must be toning through the walking or shall I say was toning. Below is my nike+ goal chart that I set up awhile ago. As you can see I am extremely behind from my goal.

Now I am so far behind that it is physically impossible for me to meet this goal. So do I start fresh and create a new goal or do I keep pushing on and see how far I can get??

I do know that no matter what I have to get back to my walking...PERIOD. I was doing so well for a few weeks and then things started getting stressful at work and at home so I would come home and just crash without walking. All I wanted to was sit down and do nothing other than sleep! While I have to pick up my exercising again, I absolutely must get back to watching everything I eat and counting my points. When I weighed in this morning I had gained 5 pounds in the past week!! That is completely unacceptable and I know I am the only one to blame! I keep finding excuse after excuse for why I am eating horribly and I'm starting to tick myself off since I am usually the person who is annoyed with those who are constantly finding excuses for their eating. There is no excuse and it basically comes down to me and not eating right! I know what I'm doing and I'm choosing to eat the wrong things and lots of it.

But not anymore!! Summer is almost here and yes work is crazy and I feel like I've been spiraling out of control, but that is even more reason why I need to take control of my eating and exercise. I know I feel better when I eat healthy and exercise. I know I will be happier when my pants fit perfectly and my scale goes back to where it should be.

I'm only 5 pounds away from being in the 130's...somewhere I never remember being! My goal was to be there before turning 30 and it really is still doable. I CAN DO IT!! I just have to eat those salads, veggies, and fruits and stop eating all that junk. I refuse to be one of those people who find excuses or even worse gain the weight back that they worked so hard to lose. Nope...not gonna happen to me!! I love being a size 6-8 and will enjoy being a 4-6 even more!!

So here are some of my new goals:
  • Eat 5 fruits/vegetables a day
  • Eat 0 candy bars, cookies, cakes, brownies, etc.
  • Eat WW fudge bars for a treat
  • Walk at least one mile a night
  • Complete 50 stomach crunches a night
At least for the next few days I am planning on posting how I'm doing to hold myself accountable. Let me know what you think I should do about my Nike graph...keep it and just keep walking or set up a new goal that is attainable?
Any encouragement would be greatly appreciated or if you have any similar experiences I can learn from I would love to hear about them. So come on bloggy me some love!!


  1. Hi! Thanks for stopping by my blog. I haven't had a chance to tour the philly bloggers yet.

    I just had a baby a couple months ago, so I am struggling with losing the last 10 pounds and then I needed to lost 5 or 10 anyhow. I don't know what I"m going to do. I'm not used to dieting.

    GOod luck! I wish I had some great advice to share, but I don't :(

  2. I am a stress eater. I have put on about 8 pounds in the last year and had wanted to lost 5 before that. I am really trying to get on the right track. I was a WW junkie in the past -- I just don't have time for meetings right now and I don't know if the on-line thing would work for me. Frankly I think that I am going to try the WW eating plan on my own, a weekly weigh in and tracking my exercise over the summer to see if I can do this myself.

    If you want an accountability partner from afar, I'll spur you on it you spur me on.

  3. Hey Mel!!! I'm here to give love!!! (waving my hand like a psycho)
    I actually just started WW again after taking an almost 6 year hiatus. After my second child was born, I lost 70 lbs doing it, AND walking my ass off (literally) like you. Then I went and had another baby and blew it all.
    I remember hitting a wall back then where the same old routine didn't seem to work anymore, plus it didn't help that my family was all "You're getting too thin!" Yeah, right.
    You sound like you are in the right frame of mind with getting back on track. Know I am there with you...taking each meal and snack as it comes...trying to choose the best and healthiest foods to nourish my body...making it a priority to MOVE...and, of course, an occasional treat (or 2)!!!
    I am FAR AWAY from my end goal, but I'm like you. This WILL be my time, even if it takes me over a year and I hit a couple road blocks along the way.
    WE CAN DO IT!!!!!!
    And I think you should start your Nike graph over. Start it fresh, because you are starting fresh. Clean slate. Then, when you finish it you will know you REALLY FINISHED it, all the way!!!!
    Oh, and glad you liked the meme. :)

  4. You can't see me, but I am frantically trying to shove some encouragement through my usb port but it just won't fit.

    Anyway, way to go on the weight loss so far. That is a huge accomplishment in itself.

    And now that the nicer weather is will WANT to be outside doing more active things and the pounds will melt away without you thinking about it.

    From your fellow philly mom blogger

  5. In terms of the Nike graph, if you think you'll find more motivation by setting a new goal I would do that. I'd go with whatever option would provide you the most motivation.

  6. Totally ditch that old graph and start fresh. Don't worry about anything that's happened before and start now. Judge by your clothes not the scale. I know that's easier said than done but try. Good luck!!!

  7. I just found these posts from your sidebar. You've done a great job so far!! And you can restart anytime. I know!

    A few years ago, I achieved lifetime with WW - unfortunately I didn't stick with it, fell back into old habits, and gained all the weight plus a lot more.

    But I started again and am really struggling but determined to stick with it no matter what. My second blog was started just for that - to force me to be accountable and to share struggles, recipes, tips, etc. In fact, I'll be going to weigh in later today and then posting about it.

    Don't give up! You can do it - doesn't matter how slowly. :)


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