Somebody kick me in the butt!

I have been on Weight Watchers for about a year and three months. As soon as I started the weight came off relatively easy. I must say I am a pretty stubborn person and once I get my mind on something I get it done. By the time summer vacation came around I was in the 150's and enjoying my new body. I didn't go hard core during the summer, but did still try to lose some. I think when I went back to school I was about 6 pounds lighter. Then I started again faithfully counting my points. In December I was around 148 and was beginning to get stuck in a rut. I decided to go ahead and let loose for the holidays hoping that when I began again in January my body would kind of be shocked back into losing mode. So I enjoyed my holidays and after Christmas had about 6 extra pounds to lose again. I hopped back on the bandwagon, but have to admit that since January I have only about 6 extra pounds. As soon as I get in the low 140's it is like my body stops losing.

Since it has been doing this for the past couple of months I find myself becoming very frustrated and having a hard time sticking with the program because I'm not seeing the results. I drink my water, have increased my exercise, and will stay within my points for a week and nothing! This in turn frustrates me and guess what? I eat!! Take today for instance...this morning I weighed and gained another pound after a pretty active weekend which included walking 2.5 miles last night. What the heck??!! So I had a decent breakfast and a lunch full of veggies and what do I do when I get home? Eat a 9 point muffin, have a 4 point bowl of ice cream, crab dip that I don't even want to know the point value of, plus a bowl of Cheerios. Then I sit here and get so ticked at myself that I did that. Why didn't I check the points of the muffin before I got home rather than stuffing it in my mouth when I got home?

I have got to do something! It seems like every week I am telling myself the same thing and it is getting old for me to write let alone for you all to read. I just can't figure out what to do? I increased my walking, drink my water, and am even getting in my veggies, but for some reason I'm so hungry especially in the afternoon. I find myself coming home and indulging in not so great stuff. Then the guilt settles in. I hate this routine, but I can't seem to get out of it. I do try veggies and fruit, but it still doesn't curb my hunger.

I feel like because I hit a plateau and I am now spiraling out of control because I am so darn frustrated that I don't lose even when I do well. I tell myself "well it doesn't really matter how well I do because I am not going to lose anyway so why not have a little ice cream." Yes, I do know that I am definitely not going to lose if I keep this up either. So what is a girl supposed to do? Please share your words of wisdom. I really need all the help I can get right now!!

Week 65 / +1 / -42