Saturday, October 25, 2008

Oh Where Oh Where Have I Been

After perusing my blog (Yes, I do read my own blog) I realized that I haven't really chatted in awhile. I've been participating in my weekly posts with Wordless Wednesday, Tackle It Tuesday, and trying to get my Five Point Friday up, but other than that I haven't really "written" anything.

I have to admit that I've been in a bit of a funk. I can't really put my finger on exactly what has been wrong, but I just haven't been feeling myself. I feel like I have this cloud hanging over me and it's just waiting to dump one heck of a rainstorm.

Like everybody else I am sure the economy has something to do with it although it really shouldn't. Luckily, I think my family is secure in our job situations, we're not behind on any bills, we are all clothed, fed, and have a comfortable house. We do have quite a bit of debt though and I feel very responsible for that. I foolishly got caught up in the materialism of today and now am paying the price. I do not regret going to school for my bachelor's and master's because I know it will eventually pay off, but the fact that we used credit to pay for it...not a great idea. Of course, hindsight is 20/20. Like I said though, the bills are being paid so I need to let go of the guilt and just move forward making better decisions and doing everything possible to get things under control. That's for another post though.

With the election right around the corner, I think that also brings me anxiety as we wait to hear the big decision of who will be running our country in the future. The candidates are just so different and seem to have such opposite visions for the country. I'm not going to get into a big political debate here because in all honesty I am a pretty politically ignorant person. I listen with an open mind, try to internalize what is being said and then develop my own opinion. However, I am in no position to actually argue with somebody about their beliefs. I know who I'm voting for and I know why and frankly nobody is going to make me change my mind so why debate it? All I can say is that I am scared about our country's future and what life is going to be like for my kids. I'll be praying harder, that's for sure!!

Work has also been somewhat stressful. There are many new initiatives taking place that require much more planning and preparation, but at the same time also requires more meetings making it very hard to find the time for the extra prep. I have had to take a step back and realize that there is only so much I can do. I refuse to bring all my work home because it is not fair to my own kids or husband. I know I work my butt off at my job and use my time as wisely as I can so I feel that if I cannot get it all done then perhaps the administrators and above need to take a look at what is occurring and make some adjustments. Meanwhile I am going to continue to do my best and be the best teacher I can be, but I'm not going to allow it to eat into my family time. My family is my first priority.

Of course in the mix of all that there is just life. The life of driving here and there to do this and that. Soccer games, swim lessons, birthday parties, school parties, baby showers, Halloween, New York's endless. Add in the laundry, dishes, dusting, mopping, bathrooms, toys...well that is overwhelming in an of itself.

So there you have it in a nutshell. My funk in all it's glory. Thanks for listening to my brain dump. Maybe now I can move forward. Become that happy go lucky person again who enjoys life and all it has to offer.

To begin moving forward here are just a few things I can be thankful for...

  • God's love! In all this craziness I know that he is there. I just need to rely on him more instead of myself. "I CAN do all things through Christ who strengthens me!"
  • My beautiful family. A husband who takes care spoils me and two healthy, adorable, smart, and funny kids who love their momma!
  • A happy marriage that I know nowadays is something very rare and precious.
  • A comfortable house at the beach.
  • Being a was a goal in life that I was able to reach. I truly love my job!
  • Wonderful friends and family who accept me as I am...for good and bad...happy and in a funk!
  • My health!

Wow...I feel better all ready!!

How are you doing with all the chaos occurring? Have you found yourself being more anxious than usual or have you been able to find peace? What are some of the things you are most thankful for?


  1. I have definitely been anxious lately! I just feel like there's an overwhelming amount of negativity in the world around me, and I don't like that.
    Still, we're secure and happy. Sure, we're not getting rich any time soon, but we are thankfully not in any danger of losing our home or jobs, and we have solid health insurance, something for which I am always grateful.

  2. I can understand what you are feeling. I hope that writing it out helps ease it for you.

  3. I myself have had a HORRIBLE past 2 weeks so I feel ya.

    Hope that you get to feeling better.

  4. Hi Mel. Thanks for sharing with us! I see ALOT of my life in yours. I appreciate you reminding me to see all that I have that I should be grateful for. I need to stop and see my blessings more often!

  5. I can totally relate. #1 stressor right now is MONEY. All of this economic uncertainty definately makes me feel more gloomy. Plus Christmas is just around the corner.

    I am sure it will work itself out. I am thankful now that I have a steady job with good health insurance and a husband with a little more financial smarts than myself :)

  6. Mel - There is definitely a lot going on right now! I am glad you rely on God's strength because He is there for you!

    We sang in church this morning, "In Christ alone." It was a good reminder to me that no matter what is going on that our hope in Christ pulls us through. There is hope that God has a plan no matter what happens in the election and no matter what happens in our days to pull us down.

    My prayer for you is that this week brings peace and joy to you in a whole new way!

    God Bless,

  7. ((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))
    I completely understand where you are coming from.
    let me know when you have a free weekend for us to come invade.... err... I mean visit with you all. Hang in there!! Keep clinging to Him!

  8. of course I am the anonymous person on here- why oh why does it do that to me??

  9. You're allowed to be in a funk once in a while! For some reason, I feel like I am actually starting to come out of a funk that I've been in for quite some time.

  10. I know exactly how you feel.

    We have been trying to cut back here and there but something always creeps up on us.
    Thankfully, we have zero credit card debt but I still have school loans and of course our house and cars.
    These things add up, and enter in the cost of living it can be tough.

    But, we too, are thankful that we can meet the basic needs of each other. There are so many people out there who are in tough situations. It really puts things in perspective.

  11. I was having a really hard time sleeping at night - all the doom and gloom. And since I work in a media organization I'm surrounded by it all the time. I finally started tuning it out whenever I could or make the choice to turn it off. I feel better - of course I know the problems are still there but I odn't need to hear about them ALL THE TIME.


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